Today I'm feeling miserable:( We were out at a party last night and I drank moderately, so no hang over. Is it that in two weeks time Steve will be off on his travels with his new job and I'm extremely jealous that he can get away from the mundane routines of ordinary life. Is it the affect of some medication that I have been prescribed and have been taking now for three nights. My beloved little car is on the market, it makes complete sense to sell it as for eight months a year we will have only one driver in the house. However its my car and once again I'm feeling that I'm making a sacrifice. Not that anybody wants to buy it yet. We have been offered ridiculously low amounts for it, yes it has a few little scratches, but its three years old and ppl are expecting mint condition!
I feel like I want to weep and knowing that I have no reason for feeling this way doesn't make me snap out of it. Can't even tell anyone how I'm feeling.

Today I have been to vote. I knew exactly which party would get my vote in the council elections. Deciding which way to vote in the AV referendum was more of a conundrum. Ian has had a lot to say on the subject on is fb page.
I am feeling a bit anxious about Steve's departure, which is more than two weeks away. Suddenly two months seems so much longer than the month trips he's been doing during the past six months. Don't want to wish my life away, but hoping this next year zooms by!

Gosh May already, another year is moving on all too fast. What a glorious May it has been with hours of warm sunshine each day. Soon the gardeners will be calling out for rain to quench the hard earth and help their flowers and crops grow.
Steve has been home for more than a month and today his travel arrangements arrived advising of his travel Itinerary for when he goes to Vancouver to join the Arcadia. Boy, am I envious. I'd love to be going with him. I know Steve will be working very hard as an engineer, it doesn't make it any easier. Perhaps if all our plans fall into place I will be able to go with him next year.
There seems a mountain to climb before then. My annoying (not life threatening in any way) health problems need sorting out again, more tests and scans to be completed before my two consultants agree a plan. Yesterday when seeing the female specialist she deduced that my many years of problems are all down to the work of an obstertrician thirty years ago who delivered my darling first born. I knew this, but the only people to have expressed this have been my female GP and this consultant:(
My Mother also has her health problems and a few appointments luming! When push comes to shove will I be able to leave her with no support.
We had a lovely Easter, visiting first Matt and Anna in Bedford before going to North to Sheffield to see Ian & Ruth. Both girlfriends are fantastic young women, I do hope my boys realise this.